update!!!

ok, so my in laws have arrived! yay! i am really having fun with my brother and sister-in-law. interestingly enough, i thought me and my sister in law have more in common, but actually it's me and my 17-year old brother-in-law that do! he loves literature, writing and is well-read! yes, he is 17! we have such great conversations and he also loves word games.

my sister-in-law is also cool. we are just very different. she is into shopping, talking on the phone, (all the time to her husband in ghana), talking about having babies, asking me when i am going to have babies (sigh), asking me which sandals she should wear with an outfit, talking about hair weaves (SIGH), etc. i really like her and she is cool, but we are just very different. they came in late on friday night. i cooked for them and it was great, they loved the food! on saturday, we went to explore downtown brooklyn. i took them to a mall. his sister didnt change her canadian dollars (which i don't understand) and wanted to buy clothing at a store. i told her they wouldn't accept canadian dollars. she just kept holding the things in her hand, as if I SHOULD BUY IT? REALLY? i didn't say anything and i think she got the point...but still it made me uncomfortable. sigh. that kind of really annoyed me. ok so it continues. all this time, her brother and i are having so much fun chatting.

when my hubby came home from work, he cooked a traditional ghanaian dish called jollof rice with some baked chicken. the food came out good, but the rice was a bit soft. however it did taste good. i wanted to take his sister out to a club with me and a very close friend of mine. she decided that she wanted to hang out with her husband's best friend (who lives in nyc). cool. she left around 8pm. the guy came to pick her up. she didn't come home until about 3am, complaining of everything that went wrong. they guy's girlfriend was jealous of her, called the police, mad drama. i couldn't believe it. i said to myself, this is your husband's best friend? hmm. so anyway, she comes in late, after calling 100 times in the middle of the night, because she couldn't remember the address, which honestly, annoyed me in the middle of my sleep. anyhow, she finally comes in, and my husband and i, along with his brother were already asleep because it was already 3am. she goes: "i'm hungry!" i go : "you didn't eat." in my head i'm thinking what kind of asshole took you out that didn't even care if you ate?! she goes, no we got there late, blah. blah, blah.....so...we go into the kitchen and my husband put aside a plate for her. she looks at the food and goes: "what is this? this is not how this food is made? yuck?" she does this before even tasting the food. then of course when she tastes it, she goes..."this doesn't taste good at all!"
i was so mad and became defensive of my husband, expressing the time he took to make it and stating how good the rice was despite its softness! my husband was asleep at this time so she didnt hear this (thankfully). this morning as soon as she woke up, she came into the kitchen and said to my husband: "the rice was really bad....." can you believe that????? i was so mad... i don't dislike her, i just think my sis-in-law is a bit immature....hmmmm.

ok we are off to times square! that should be fun....i realize that the way i see my husband is different from how his siblings see him. family love vs. initmate/friendship/marital love...hmmm.
interesting.

more to come soon!

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almost here...

so my in-laws (my brother and sister in law) are almost here...and i'm excited. i realized that i was being selfish. i am still overwhelmed, but i'm sure we will have fun! all of the cleaning is done. i am cooking now! woohoo!

YAY!

i will update soon!

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my in-laws....arriving TOMORROW!!!

ok so this has been a week filled with anxiety as my in-laws are coming tomorrow. my husband's brother and sister to be exact. his sister is 23 and married (not coming with her husband) and his brother is 17. let me tell you why i am nervous. first of all, my husband has to work for most of the time they will be here, therefore, i will have to spend most of the time with them! first of all, i don't know either of them that well, so you can imagine how i feel. also, the question of food, activities, etc. today we went food shopping and filled the house. when they arrive, i will be in charge of the cooking, etc. but seriously, i feel overwhelmed. i am on vacation and honestly, vacation to me means writing and doing nothing! today we cleaned and scrubbed for hours on end...i hated it! i hate preparing for guests. it's just too much pressure for me. when it's my family, i don't care, but my husband's family, i just feel nervous. perhaps it's because they live in canada. sigh.

i explained my nervousness/anxiety to my husband and he seemed so nonchalant...he said things like "don't worry, it will be fine, etc." but for some reason, that doesn't calm me down. did i mention they are staying until next thursday?! that is a LONG TIME. how can i use the bathroom in peace? and sleep? my wonderful husband suggested that we give his brother and sister OUR BEDROOM, while we sleep on the couch for the next 6 NIGHTS! WTF? is that rationale to you? i am your WIFE for god's sake...you don't mind me sleeping on a damn couch bed? UGH! i feel like i sound selfish. i guess i'm frustrated because his family pretty much invited themselves (particularly his sister) without considering scheduling, etc. if they did, they would have come on a tues night so that my husband could have weds and thurs to chill with them. but NO, they are arriving on a FRIDAY night and i am gonna have to be ms hostess for the next 6 days. sigh.

although i am excited and looking forward to knowing them more etc., i will also need my free time in order to survive. how can i incorporate my own free time without making my husband feel bad? sigh again. i guess it will all work itself out....i still have to clean the bathroom and scrub the tub. sigh. that is my least favorite job!

i don't know how well i will sleep tonite.

am i being selfish?

peace and nappiness

p.s. because we will be sleeping on the couch bed in the living room, does that mean no sex for the next 6 days? sigh again. sigh. sigh. fuckin sigh.
p.p.s did i mention that my mom is in town also????

AM poetry

twisted

morning baby
how do you do
i was happy to
spend the night with you

when you came home
i wasn't there
that's because i wanted you to stare
at my empty canvas
circling our home

it worked

i walked in
and you were mesmerized
by my presence
once again
like the good ol' days
trapped in my red haze
like the devil's servant

it felt good
to trap you
again
because i am always
in your cell

...

love and life is not easy all the time....sigh :-(

separation anxiety...

i am finally back. so many things have happened since i last wrote. first of all, school is officially out and i am a teacher on vacation! i really want to relax this summer, but i also want to get tons of writing done and send my book out to publishers. i also want to get my driver's license. if i get those things done i will feel great. however, i want to make sure that i relax as well.

sooo, i am going to a conference tomorrow with the people from my new school. it is an educational conference in stamford, ct, where educators discuss a plethora of educational issues, as well as write lessons and plan curriculum for the school year. i am feeling excited and kind of nervous, because these people are new to me, and i will be around them for 3 whole days at a hotel. 3 days away from my boo? i don't know if i can handle that. i love sleeping with him at night, and seeing him in the morning. we will be apart for 72 hours! that is a long time! i expressed my separation anxiety to my husband and he said "baby, you will be back on weds. you are not going forever." haha. although that is true, i guess i am not looking forward to sleeping in a hotel room with a stranger. we all have roommates. sigh. i am too grown for a damn roommate.

i think i have separation anxiety because my husband and i had an international-long-distance relationship for years. it was really hard, but we were persistent and we prevailed! thanks to the creator for that. so now the thought of leaving his side makes me sad. however, i know i will be back sooner than i think! sleeping will be the hardest part is all....i guess i will have to call him before i sleep :-) other than that, i look forward to meeting and hanging out with my new colleagues and learning more about how to be a better teacher. one of the workshops i am attending is titled: how to really assess reading. i really hope to learn from this because i find most reading assessments to be biased. perhaps we will also receive materials as well? that would be great. well, i guess i need to start packing! i also have to start cooking because my boo will be home by 8pm....baked bbq salmon and rice/beans is on the menu....woohoo!!!!

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one of those days...

today i walked into the school building, and all i could think was....get me outta here! i cannot wait until thurs. as of now, it seems really far away. i just want to go home already and go back to bed and read! so i am currently sitting in my classroom, making my green tea and reading the novel "anna karenina"...it's soo good and hard to believe it was written in 1863...russians are amazing writers...speaking of writing, i got so much more work to do this summer. whew. ok, pray for me, because this feels like a long one.

peace and nappiness

p.s. i pick up my laundry today!!! woohoo!!! and to think, i didn't have to do a thing!