my life, my life. my life.

so i started a poetry blog in addition to this one, and i am happy about it. i have been posting a lot more on my poetry blog, because, well, i'm obsessed with poetry more than anything else. i am really enjoying having a very public poetry blog and i hope it will help in the future when and if ever my book(s) are published. i have faith.

last week was intense. let's start with the positive. my husband and i have been hanging out, OUTSIDE of the house. now, if you knew my husband, you would know that is a big deal! i do believe that my husband has been suffering from a serious bout of homesickness, and a friend encouraged me to inquire about the normal time for homesickness to last for immigrants in the usa. from what i found, it is really a never-ending feeling. over time it gets better and the suggested homesick period is 1-2 years! WHAT?! sometimes i sit and think about everything he left behind to be here and i realize that he has sacrificed a lot: his home, his friends, job, family, car, etc. i know it is not easy and i have been trying to be as understanding as possible. he has been getting better. after our ridiculous phone argument, i literally ignored him for 3 full days. it was so hard for me, but i had to do it, because he was driving me insane! lol. after 3 days, he started to try really hard to get my attention. i gave in, and things have been great. he took me out on a date last sunday. he had the day off, and surprised me! he usually works on sundays. that was great. and during the week he would bring dinner home from several restaurants near his job, which was sweet and really thoughtful, because he would bring all of my favorites!
it does feel good to just smile and relax together, because we love each other! we are just both very stubborn, "do-it-my-way" kind of people. and sometimes, one of us MUST let go or we will kill each other. hehe. i also believe prayers have helped.

moving on. school is still great! i love my students. they are so damn cute. i am wrapping up the first unit which is narrative writing! they wrote some amazing stuff! many of the boys wrote about love, which shocked me.....it's usually the girls. already i am seeing all of the budding relationships and it really takes me back to my hs memories. the socializing in the hallway, the kissing in the hallway (haha, that was me!) the studying! those were the good old days. now i'm married and old. haha.

however, one bad thing did happen at school last week. my ipod was stolen. now let me be clear, it was stolen AFTER school, not when the students were around, which means it was an adult. when i left my classroom, i had to go to a professional development meeting in manhattan. when i left two teachers, who are always in my room (they are cool) were still in there. i locked the doors and told them to close the doors behind them. everything was locked and after putting my ipod in my drawer, i could have sworn i locked it (because i always do)! i leave my ipod in my classroom because that is where i use it and listen to it most. anyway, i walk in the next morning and my desk is open and it is gone! i was so angry! then i find out there was a PTA meeting in my room that night? wtf?! i immediately went to the principal and asked why i wasn't notified of the meeting. he told me it was a last minute decision and so that is why i didn't know. sigh. i told him my ipod was stolen. he felt terrible. the crazy thing is that i think it was one of the teachers who was in my room. but of course, i don't know. i feel so violated. i feel like i can't trust people anymore, it is terrible. the teacher, who i believe did it, came to me the very next day trying to be 'extra' nice. i wasn't being too friendly, so she goes: "what is wrong with you?" i explained to her that my ipod was stolen and she reacted like a suspect. she goes: "was it right here?" as she said that she pointed to exactly where it was, which i thought was suspicious! then she goes: "oh they probably took mine too, cuz i left mine on my desk!" who would say that if they didn't take it? I WANT TO SMACK HER! i really believe in my heart that it was her. but you know what? karma is a bitch and it will come back to her. but it was my entire music collection: 3000 songs and i dont have them backed up on my computer (long story)...SIGH!

anyway, the principal says i will be reimbursed for half of the ipod because he feels responsible. i feel a little better, but now i am on a mission to get my songs back! ahhhhh. anyway, life is still beautiful!

in other news, someone from my posse is pregnant! her wedding is on oct. 11th and she just found out she is pregnant! i am so happy for her. her fiance is amazing and i think they are a good match. this will be my first wedding i have ever attended that wasn't mine! i am excited. my first wedding i attended, was mine! haha. so yeah. when she broke the news to me, she goes, "when are you going to get pregnant?" ahhhhh. here we go. once again, i have something else to think about (not that i ever stopped).....ahhhhhhh!

peace, love & nappiness

p.s. i really want to go to the afrocentric store and buy a long dress with africa on the back....
p.p.s. I LOVE MY LOCS!