blessed

there are so many things to be thankful for at this time in my life. first and foremost, i am healthy and i am thankful for that. secondly, my husband and i have been having an amazing month, which is such a good sign for us. i truly believe it was the power of prayer and the strength of my family that helped me get through the trying times, when it seemed as if my husband and i just didn't seem to be understanding each other. after writing my husband a 4-page letter, it really made him reflect and begin to change things. i must say that this month, the changes have been consistent, and i know that my husband loves me so much, just by the thoughtful and caring things he does for me on a daily basis. i am also learning more about him and understanding that it is not my job to try to change him, but to love him for who he is, and appreciate all of the great things he does. a wise married friend (who just had a baby! yay!) gave me that wonderful advice. and i'm learning, day-by-day that it is true.

they say you can tell how much someone loves you by the way they look at you. i believe that to be true. the eyes never lie. even in friendships, you know who your genuine friends are, and who they are not. in terms of friendships, i am realizing that i have such wonderful people in my corner, and for that i am grateful.

i have been planning lessons and writing units and i feel proud of myself because i have units planned until november. now i am writing the lessons for school and i already have the first week planned out. i have never been this organized before school even started, and so i'm feeling like i am going to have a strong year. i already feel pretty comfortable with my principal as well as the head of the english dept. i met with them this week and they gave me great feedback on my units. great constructive criticism! i go back to work earlier than normal. i will be back on tues! ahhhh, summer is over. wow. i must say that the summer was a serious time of reflection for me. i learned so much about my life, about love and about marriage. i also relaxed a lot which i think was vital for myself and my health.

some interesting news. glamour magazine got a hold of one of my poems (via a friend who works there). i didn't know my friend (who i haven't talked to in years) passed my poem along. so it was shocking to me when she told me that one of the editors wants to see me....TOMORROW AT 1PM! isn't that nutty? i have no expectations. i am just going to talk about my work and i will be myself. they said they may want to include an excerpt of one of my poems in a future article. we shall see. of course that is great publicity, but i'm not getting too excited...yet. nonetheless, i feel very flattered to even have this meeting in the first place. writing is my life. it's in my heart. when i get to talk about it, or share with someone else, it feels good. i haven't been going to poetry readings anymore, not because i don't love them, but because i feel that the ones in nyc have become so trite and superficial and i just refuse to take part in that. i want to be surrounded by real writers who take writing seriously. not wannabe artists who just want instant "fame." oh boy, i'm not even going to get into that. but i do miss the stage and the microphone. i was thinking of starting a writer's group in my apt on saturday afternoons. we shall see.

for now, i am happy and healthy and so thankful.

peace & nappiness

p.s. prayers to all my family, friends, and of course the latest addition, baby lia :-)
p.p.s. i got a day planner book and it feels GRRREEEAATT!!!